Hmm...

If Jesus had been killed twenty years ago, Catholic school children would be wearing little electric chairs around their necks instead of crosses. 
Lenny Bruce

the other side....

I need to belong to something.  It's always been that way.  I've belonged to my family, friends, girls, churches, juice crew, clubs, ministries, and groups.  It's not a weakness to need to belong.  It's part of creation.  But as with all things, too much can be bad.

We see proof of this in the midst of a "conflict."  Immediately people choose sides.  Running to what they know and are familiar with alongside like minded people.  This secures their need to belong and ensures they don't wind up alone.  All for a greater good of course...  Yes, why don't we rush to our sides and further this conflict to the point of no - return.  Along the way we can burn some bridges and dig some holes.  Ha ha.  If you can't tell by the tone of my typing my typical witty charm has been replaced by a darker sarcasm.  

I will not choose a side.  I would rather suffocate my need to belong than sign my soul over to any of you.  Indecision? No.  Selfish?  No.  Lazy?  No.  Maybe without sides we'd see each other closely enough to really love.  You're all crazy.  But I could be worse.... 

Well...

I've been sleeping very well lately.  My zeal for rest has become increasingly passionate.  My mornings are easy.  When it is time for my day I have recovered well. During the night I have dreams.  Good ones.  Sometimes I write them down and sometimes I just forget them.  I don't have nightmares.  Even if I did I do not scare easily.  I have many blankets, one of them is my favorite.  Goose down, 300 thread count, oversized king.   But I have more.  I like to bury myself.  I like the window open.  I can sleep through anything. 

I don't have a point.  I'm just really very tired.  I'm looking forward to my sleep.  Goodnight friends.

the illusion of human perception...

Not that I understand the human mind but it's simply the most complicated machine on the planet.  And the most powerful.  It has the ability to perceive, ponder, and process information. The ability to think, dream, and realize.  It can remember, and it can protect.  It has infinite capabilities, some of which we are not even aware of.  But perhaps the most impressive of all, is the ability to create reality through perception.  If I eat an orange, it is the mind that will convince me of the taste, the smell, the texture.  It is my mind that will let me know whether or not I am enjoying the orange.  Through the perception of the orange my mind convinces me that it is reality.  That's the way I was created to live.  It is impressive and wonderful.

So here is a truth.  Every moment of my life is an intimate interaction with the creator, the only change is my perception.  

As impressive as the human mind is, it is not infallible to error, or misperception.  Count it a blessing only your heart will be judged. 

A time for everything...

Just because I MISS being in eighth grade and having nothing to do but pretend to be cool doesn't mean I'm going to go squeeze back into my Ben Hill uniform.  Those days are over.  

Just because I MISS Sugar Ray doesn't mean I'm going to dig through my old cds.  Those days are over. 

Just because I MISS not having to work doesn't mean I'm going to move back home.  Those days are over.  

Just because I MISS Sonic The Hedgehog doesn't mean my sega works.  Those days are over.

Just because I MISS recess doesn't mean I can hang around the playground after lunch.  Those days are over.

Just because I MISS Santa Clause doesn't mean I'll be good. Those days are over.

Just because I MISS...

February

February is the shortest month of the year.  I better make it count.